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natural history of disease

He still keeps my poems
a natural history of disease an imagined history of senses a wondrous history of faith
one day he will understand or maybe sooner
why I let him laugh let him mock me let him hate me why I have no shame in clinging still to the ghost of him claim him with words erase myself from him
with words, erase all the worlds created for him (no, that was him) was it?
words, words, words a chant it is, a mystery to hear an ancient tongue
when we talk like machines and machines talk to us &

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II. IceYou really should wear that dress with that scarf. It brings out the color of your eyes. Black dress prevents you from looking like a cute little mess. The contrast of your facial features. So funny. So unnatural. But in black it's almost regal.
Don't forget the red lipstick. Nobody wears it like you do. I love it when you don't take it off before you go to bed. And then you leave a trail on my pillow. But somehow it does not smudge. You know your magic. You line your lips with a pencil first. Then the Shanghai Red, that's the name of that shade you wear.
There you go. Now pick up the car keys. They're on your desk. Not that one II. Ice
by ~YHA-NTHLEI

messageI can accept that we have nothing else to say to each other.
Even that I am wrong and that we never had.

But why do you read this, what do you want me to say? What do you expect to see here, among the ruins of me?
Why do you keep coming back?
Why can't you just let go? message
by ~YHA-NTHLEI

stage light: redStage fright, do you feel it? Well, you know you should.
The figures are dancing already.

Slow shadows pass us by while we stare at each other, numb our molten fears circle around us in slow waves of cool winter air intimate birds of prey wait.

All is quiet, all is still but we're losing our blood.
I am dripping you are dripping and there is a desert of dryness between us. stage light: red
by ~YHA-NTHLEI

of ice and raintoday on the road I could have gone further I could have driven all day I would have come only to see you shut me off again
I almost didn't take that turn
back home I almost went on
don't care about the rain or the snow
or the ice of your heart or your eyes
I would sit in front of your house would not even look through your window I would just be there. of ice and rain
by ~YHA-NTHLEI

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Fall HopelesslyI'd write you a thousand songs, If only I could find you. Hidden behind every light open, Open to the west.
And I'd unfurl you beneath the pages, Go over you with a magnifying glass. Scrutinize your every crack, Every breath.
I'd never take you for granted, boy, And, oh, the things we'd do. Take up poetry and collect stamps, Stamp it down.
If I'd ever have the courage, I'd tell you over and over. These nasty things inside my head, Headaches and monograms.
And I'd take you to the ends of the earth, Where we'd take t Fall Hopelessly
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Sun Dec 20, 2009, 3:24 AM

Mood: Thanks
Listening to: Mono - Pure As Snow
Reading: Saint-Exupery's Night Flight, the one and only
Watching: the rays of cold winter sun on my window
Drinking: heather flavored black tea with rum

And once again, I fail. I cannot write poetry about him. Not a line.
It would be so nice, it is the dawn of the new love, or maybe just a short infatuation. But nevertheless...
To see how it all emerges, how I am capable of loving more even though my heart's in pieces because of broken friendships that never were.
To follow the way I notice when he is not around. The slightest changes in the air caused by his blink, the accidental gazes that very first evening, standing next to him the other night feeling locked within his radius. And it's so good to give in, even though it will all end so soon. I missed this feeling, of being helplessly in love. For years I've lived without it. It came so uninvited.
But no poems.
Is it because he is so real? So pure. He opened up in front of me, completely unarmed. And thus he wins. Words fail.

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~Gray-Ink Dec 7, 2009, 1:37:05 PM

Thank you for the favourite!

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_{love is not a victory march
it's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah}

#Respect-Us Nov 15, 2009, 9:03:54 AM

Hi

You have added a club image to your faves, could you please remove the club image from your faves and visit the original piece to fave and comment. You will find the link to the original in the artists comments of the clubs image
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Thank you in advance PLEASE DO NOT FAVE CLUB IMAGES, fave the originals

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~YHA-NTHLEI Nov 15, 2009, 2:06:36 AM

hello mr. zebra can I have your sweater cause it's cold cold cold
in my
hole hole hole.

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the blacker the sun, the darker the dawn.

~VenuQue Oct 8, 2009, 2:18:03 AM

Thank you, Goddess!

~lunalibera Sep 28, 2009, 10:13:23 PM

~Olgin Sep 16, 2009, 3:45:25 AM

Thnx for the fave

~footnoted Sep 13, 2009, 4:15:35 AM

I have read and faved several of your poems. That was the first reading I did this morning, and I am actually too impressed to be able to describe the experience. You have an authentic voice that speaks profound emotion, described in the most striking, or fetching, images. The greatness of your accomplishment is already well evident in your poems.

~footnoted Sep 13, 2009, 3:59:27 AM

Thank you so much for the faves, I appreciate that!

~cooki-la Jul 20, 2009, 3:11:17 PM

i really liked that poem: Wedding.
i wanted to comment, but it wouldn't let me so here i am commenting.
i loves it!
it's very nice.
andi fav'd it cuz....i loves it.
^-^